You got to move it, move it!!

Last week was a rough week for me!  Now not rough like oh I have no food or no where to live rough...not even like oh I need a snack but I am out of snacks rough...just a low on motivation week!

I weighed in with Weight Watchers last Tuesday and had lost a supremely minimal amount of weight!  All I could think was, I only had a few hand fulls of chips out of the way but I knew I hadn't been perfect because of that and I had to remind myself of something I had said to someone else and it is true, at least I didn't gain!

But last week was one of those weeks where this lack of weight loss took a bit of a toll on my motivation.  I worked out Monday and after that...well I didn't work out again until today.  One day was due to weather, two days due to lack of motivation and then I was away the entire weekend so that was out of my control.  But it just wasn't a good week for my head space which is odd for me when I am in crack down, work out mode but I guess it happens and I need to make sure I cut myself some slack every now and then.

I worked out tonight and then I learned tonight that it gives snow tomorrow night and also a storm on Wednesday, I am going to have to try and do something at home however our living room and being on the third floor, well it isn't conducive at all to the space I need to do my work outs.  I just need winter to be over already and stop messing with me!  So with Tuesday and Wednesday maybe being out I am going to have to work my butt off and go Thursday-Sunday, it might just have to happen that I enter a gym on a Sunday which is usually my cardinal day off!!

It was one of those times where I needed to be the cheerleader for myself and just couldn't be...but it is over and it is a new week and I will not let myself down again!

Thankfully that crap week was capped by the most amazing weekend away with Peter!  For Christmas we decided to plan a weekend away instead of doing traditional gifts!  It was perfect.  The weather was winter time perfect with no snow but there was lots of snow on the ground, temperatures were just below zero and there was a hot tub outdoors!  It was so fun!  We spent time walking, talking and hot tubbing!  Thank goodness it wasn't a hot tub time machine because the last thing I want to do is go back!  It was just what we needed and it was heaven!  Lastnight we also bottled 30 bottles of wine...that should be interesting!!! :)

In terms of going back, visiting your past.  Would you want to?  Even if it meant being able to change some of the bad things or maybe mistakes you recognize now?  For me, never!  I am turning 35 in March and I have done nothing but grow as a person and I couldn't imagine going back to the low self esteem, thinking I didn't deserve more person I was.  There are things I would change for sure, believe you me, but I wouldn't even want to go back to those times in my life.  I sometimes wake up from a dream that has taken me back to those places and I am SO thankful when I wake up to think, thank god that isn't my life now.
No one's life is perfect, past or present but I am at the place in life I want to be.  Maybe with a bit more dreams fulfilled but they will come, I am confident of that.
But as a person, I realize I needed to find my happiness.  That started with myself.  I still have a few self image issues that I continue to work on but I know I am worthy of happiness and that makes a huge difference.

So what's to come?  So much!!  Life really is what you make it and sometimes you lose your footing or fall off course but it is about realizing that and making sure you put yourself first and stick with what you know is important.  You are worth it, each and everyone of us!!

Here is a pic from our weekend! :)

Until next time...xx