So I got thinking today as a colleague waited to find out if she got a position, that anticipation can be a good thing and it can also be an agonizing thing!
For me, I am the kind of person that needs something to look forward to. No life isn't that bleak that I need milestones to get me through but it is just how I have always been. I am excited by events and look forward to things and get excited by being able to look forward to something. There are people in my life such as my mother and even Pete who aren't overly excitable and just take things as they come and enjoy them when they arrive but not really the lead up to the event as much.
A friend's mother once said: Anticipation is half the fun! I have never forgotten this but as I look around, that isn't always the case! In instances such as waiting on medical results or waiting to see if you did get that job you really really want, the anticipation is a bit painful and agonizing in those situations...which equals not a lot of fun!
So anticipation really can be tricky! Now for me, I got so excited about the lead up to things I couldn't sleep when I was younger such as the first day of school (yes I was a geek), Christmas morning, the last day of school....those were the big things in life at that age and I waited and waited and anticipated and waited some more! The really tricky part though about anticipation is wishing something would arrive, it does and then what? You are left with some memories but it is now over...all that waiting and build up to have time pass you right by and the anticipation for that one thing must cease! It is almost like a balloon being deflated.
That is the thing with anticipation, whatever you are waiting for will eventually come and well, then it is over!
Not everyone looks at things that way but like I said, I need me some stuff to look forward to. It doesn't have to be huge stuff like a trip but even a busy weekend or in some cases, a not busy weekend but I like to have something on the go in the near future! I am not sure what to even call this, is it a personality trait? Am I lacking something in day to day life? Do I just like to be excited and hopeful for the future? I am not sure but I am happy the way I am, in this regard. I like being excited about stuff instead of being hum drum about things...again there are bad types of anticipation but I sure do enjoy the good ones!!
Things I am currently anticipating:
Weekend away to Cape Breton
Weekend at home for Easter
Fun work trip at the end of April
Cruise in May
Trip to Toronto in June
Wedding and bridal shower of a friend in July
My bridal shower/bachelorette and our wedding in August
Our honeymoon in late November
Now of course spontaneity is great too, don't get me wrong. I do love it when fun things (not bad things) pop up suddenly and life takes a different turn! That is really fun too and I enjoy that as well because that is what makes life complete...some expected but also some unexpected to keep things exciting and fun!
Are you someone who prefers to enjoy stuff in the moment it happens or enjoy the lead up to the moment as well? Both are fine, but it is just interesting how everyone has a different approach!
I must end though with something my dad always says as well which is: "Don't wish your life away!"
This is a great point for me being such an anticipator because that is how it seems when you are always waiting for something to happen....
Until next time...xoxo
Monday, April 4, 2011
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Welcome back Cotter...errr Meggan!
Wow!
It has been a long time since I updated, life has truly gotten in the way! I feel horribly guilty actually and have thought of my blog many times in longing but just have not sat down to pay the proper attention!
So here I am, I hope you can forgive me....and still have interest in reading!
I don't remember when I last wrote but we have since moved apartments! On a whim we checked out another place, not much more money and an additional bedroom so I could have my own office and just as much on a whim we decided to take it! February involved a whole lot of purging junk, cleaning and stinky effing cardboard boxes! If I never see a cardboard box again, I will be very happy!
We decided to be grown ups and hire movers which was great. It was a bit of money but money well spent indeed! Our new place is fab! I really love it here! We have a upstairs where the bedrooms and main bathroom and storage is along with washer and driver. Downstairs is an ungodly large dining room, 1/2 bathroom, living room and kitchen! Balcony down and upstairs off our bedroom! The kitties didn't have a pleasant move at all. To put it mildly, they are not fans of the cat carrier, in fact they hate it and are petrified! It was a rough move on those little guys but now that we are well settled in they are very happy! Shogun has lots of room to play and run and Simon, well he has more places to be grumpy!
It is funny, I didn't realize that I needed this change but I really really did. I now know I was caught in a rut at the old place, same old thing, day after day. This isn't to say every 5-6 years I will need a change but I now realize I sure did in this case. The new place feels like more of a home and we have spent time decorating it and making it feel like we are adults and all that fun stuff!!
Wedding plans are coming along great! Will be sending out Save the Dates in April as I come from God's Country yes but God's Country doesn't have many accommodations unfortunately! It pretty much is my only stress right now, hoping and praying (God's Country, haha) that there will be enough places for people to stay! Otherwise everything is booked and picked out and what not for now! I get so excited when I think about it and just think it is going to be a fun summer!
One of my dearest friends is moving home from Edmonton tomorrow! Brianna has been gone for almost 5 years and it is almost unimaginable to have her in the same town to see her whenever and wherever, what a luxury! She has been such a good friend to me, it is hard to put it into words! We literally talk almost everyday and to be able to share everything in person will be great! Also my parents are coming for the weekend and it is a month away now before ma and I head on our cruise, lots on the go!!!!!!!
Yeah so this was a boring entry but I just felt you were all DYING to be caught up on my life..like how much better do you feel!? You feel complete now don't you! :)
Next entry will be more enlightening on a grand scale but I AM BACK BABY!!!!!!!!!
Currently reading: The Brightest Star in the Sky by Marian Keyes
(Since my last entry I had read: The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo and I highly recommend it)
Till next time..xoxo
It has been a long time since I updated, life has truly gotten in the way! I feel horribly guilty actually and have thought of my blog many times in longing but just have not sat down to pay the proper attention!
So here I am, I hope you can forgive me....and still have interest in reading!
I don't remember when I last wrote but we have since moved apartments! On a whim we checked out another place, not much more money and an additional bedroom so I could have my own office and just as much on a whim we decided to take it! February involved a whole lot of purging junk, cleaning and stinky effing cardboard boxes! If I never see a cardboard box again, I will be very happy!
We decided to be grown ups and hire movers which was great. It was a bit of money but money well spent indeed! Our new place is fab! I really love it here! We have a upstairs where the bedrooms and main bathroom and storage is along with washer and driver. Downstairs is an ungodly large dining room, 1/2 bathroom, living room and kitchen! Balcony down and upstairs off our bedroom! The kitties didn't have a pleasant move at all. To put it mildly, they are not fans of the cat carrier, in fact they hate it and are petrified! It was a rough move on those little guys but now that we are well settled in they are very happy! Shogun has lots of room to play and run and Simon, well he has more places to be grumpy!
It is funny, I didn't realize that I needed this change but I really really did. I now know I was caught in a rut at the old place, same old thing, day after day. This isn't to say every 5-6 years I will need a change but I now realize I sure did in this case. The new place feels like more of a home and we have spent time decorating it and making it feel like we are adults and all that fun stuff!!
Wedding plans are coming along great! Will be sending out Save the Dates in April as I come from God's Country yes but God's Country doesn't have many accommodations unfortunately! It pretty much is my only stress right now, hoping and praying (God's Country, haha) that there will be enough places for people to stay! Otherwise everything is booked and picked out and what not for now! I get so excited when I think about it and just think it is going to be a fun summer!
One of my dearest friends is moving home from Edmonton tomorrow! Brianna has been gone for almost 5 years and it is almost unimaginable to have her in the same town to see her whenever and wherever, what a luxury! She has been such a good friend to me, it is hard to put it into words! We literally talk almost everyday and to be able to share everything in person will be great! Also my parents are coming for the weekend and it is a month away now before ma and I head on our cruise, lots on the go!!!!!!!
Yeah so this was a boring entry but I just felt you were all DYING to be caught up on my life..like how much better do you feel!? You feel complete now don't you! :)
Next entry will be more enlightening on a grand scale but I AM BACK BABY!!!!!!!!!
Currently reading: The Brightest Star in the Sky by Marian Keyes
(Since my last entry I had read: The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo and I highly recommend it)
Till next time..xoxo
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Talent..where does it come from??
Sorry for my lack of writing lately...I have a lot going on with work and preparing to move and just general life but I will try to do better!! :)
So this past weekend we went to a party, it was fun, got to meet some new people and enjoy some guitars and singing. Looking around the room at a variety of people, it got me thinking, why do certain people have certain talents? I mean, I can guess why on a scientific level but plainly on a cognitive level, it really got me thinking.
We had a very yummy and amazingly decorated cake while we were there by lovely Kathleen Donovan (check out her page on Facebook) but then even though she had a cold she sat down and sang better than I ever could, cold or not, and played the guitar. That was three talents all in one night that were displayed...cake making, singing and guitar.
Then not once but TWICE Peter played an original song that he literally made up on the spot! He made up two whole songs by just starting to play his guitar and singing. I was honestly floored when he told me that he just made them up as he went along. They were really good and he would never remember them the next day but the fact that he could do that just blew my mind!
For a moment I thought, well this is all really rather unfair! haha Also there were others playing guitar and singing and they looked free and comfortable and they really enjoyed their talent.
Rather than feel sorry for myself it got me thinking, there has to be something we are all good at! It might not be something so overt such as singing or playing a guitar or being able to dance really well but we all must have something.
How often do we appreciate the things we are good at and really give ourselves credit?
It is a lot easier to pick ourselves apart with the negatives and a lot of people also feel that if they display or celebrate their talents that they will look arrogant or like a show-off.
I think though that it is really important to take a moment and recognize what we do well, what special gifts our parents and nature have given us in our almighty DNA!
Even though my potential has gone mostly unused so far in life, I do feel I have a talent for writing. Even just writing the previous sentence I feel guilty for saying that but why? It isn't as if I am saying, I am THE best writer ever. I so am not, obviously but to even say I am good at something is hard to put out there.
Not everything we are good at is a talent such as being a good listener or being able to give good advice but they are positives and you should be able to recognize that.
What do you do well? What is your talent and do you give yourself credit for having that talent? Is your talent being wasted or used?
I admire people with overt talents and who use them and do celebrate them by sharing them with others!
What if figures such as Jackson Pollock or Bono or Mark Zuckerberg had kept their talents to themselves?
Just some food for thought!
Still reading...Water for Elephants and it is most excellent, I just haven't read much lately but I will!!
Until next time...xo
So this past weekend we went to a party, it was fun, got to meet some new people and enjoy some guitars and singing. Looking around the room at a variety of people, it got me thinking, why do certain people have certain talents? I mean, I can guess why on a scientific level but plainly on a cognitive level, it really got me thinking.
We had a very yummy and amazingly decorated cake while we were there by lovely Kathleen Donovan (check out her page on Facebook) but then even though she had a cold she sat down and sang better than I ever could, cold or not, and played the guitar. That was three talents all in one night that were displayed...cake making, singing and guitar.
Then not once but TWICE Peter played an original song that he literally made up on the spot! He made up two whole songs by just starting to play his guitar and singing. I was honestly floored when he told me that he just made them up as he went along. They were really good and he would never remember them the next day but the fact that he could do that just blew my mind!
For a moment I thought, well this is all really rather unfair! haha Also there were others playing guitar and singing and they looked free and comfortable and they really enjoyed their talent.
Rather than feel sorry for myself it got me thinking, there has to be something we are all good at! It might not be something so overt such as singing or playing a guitar or being able to dance really well but we all must have something.
How often do we appreciate the things we are good at and really give ourselves credit?
It is a lot easier to pick ourselves apart with the negatives and a lot of people also feel that if they display or celebrate their talents that they will look arrogant or like a show-off.
I think though that it is really important to take a moment and recognize what we do well, what special gifts our parents and nature have given us in our almighty DNA!
Even though my potential has gone mostly unused so far in life, I do feel I have a talent for writing. Even just writing the previous sentence I feel guilty for saying that but why? It isn't as if I am saying, I am THE best writer ever. I so am not, obviously but to even say I am good at something is hard to put out there.
Not everything we are good at is a talent such as being a good listener or being able to give good advice but they are positives and you should be able to recognize that.
What do you do well? What is your talent and do you give yourself credit for having that talent? Is your talent being wasted or used?
I admire people with overt talents and who use them and do celebrate them by sharing them with others!
What if figures such as Jackson Pollock or Bono or Mark Zuckerberg had kept their talents to themselves?
Just some food for thought!
Still reading...Water for Elephants and it is most excellent, I just haven't read much lately but I will!!
Until next time...xo
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Where does your outlook on life really come from?
If we are lucky, each and everyday we wake up! (hopefully you have gone to sleep at some point as well, this much I am going to assume).
We each swing our feet over the side of our sleeping apparatus (bed, futon, couch, whatever) and start a new day in this world.
But what is your attitude going to be like today and really, where does that come from? I believe you really do choose your attitude! I know that is an old and possibly corny statement but I really believe it. Everyone, and I mean everyone, has stuff going on in their lives. Whether you are a parent and you are juggling a thousand balls in the air at once, you might be having relationship or family issues, you might just not feel well that particular day. Each and every person starts that day and chooses to deal with it in a certain way.
Through the avenue of Facebook, people's statuses have become sound bites of how people either want to appear or how they are and then they show that to the world. I never really considered the concept of this very much and was a huge status updater for a very long time but have really curbed that now and am much happier because of it for some reason. There needs to be some mystery in life I guess.
But back to our attitudes and why people choose different ones. I know for me personally, I try to start each day with a positive outlook, it isn't always a choice, it just is the way I feel. Sometimes throughout the day things happen that may not be as positive and may effect that but I try to make my initial perspective a positive one. I don't have any major issues in my life right now and I am sure that helps but I still choose my attitude. I truly feel as well that the right foods and exercise play a huge role in my mental state and my mood. I want to be happy, I want to see the good around me. I am not this way 100% but I try, I really do (even if I don't always succeed!).
What makes other people choose the opposite a lot of the time? There are so many different reasons and I can't even or don't want to speculate, it could be so many things. I guess in saying all this I wish for people who are perpetually negative or feel when they wake up that is just going to be another tough or crappy day, well what if you thought a different way? What if you thought, yes today is going to be tough, I am going to face this kind of challenge, I am going to face it all head on and try to make the most of it. I literally just saw a commercial with a man who is running a marathon on prosthetic legs...what if he woke up and thought, I don't even have legs, what do I have left to live for? He has obviously made a choice to make the most of his short time here on earth. Life could be so much more difficult even though some days you couldn't imagine it to be worse.
I don't know, I just feel that our time here on earth is so short and we really should try to make the most of it.
Again, none of this applies to every single day in life because that isn't realistic but facing each day head on should be a priority!
I would wish that for everyone!
On a lighter note...two yummy things I have found!
Blue menu muffin mix...pineapple, carrot and bran....12 large muffins, 3 points a muffin, very high in fibre!
Blue menu muffin mix...pineapple, carrot and bran....12 large muffins, 3 points a muffin, very high in fibre!
Also, Skinny Cow Cookies and Cream ice cream sandwiches, 4 points and SO WORTH IT!!!
Thanks for stopping by and here's to wishing you a fantastic tomorrow!!
Until next time...xx
Monday, January 31, 2011
You got to move it, move it!!
Last week was a rough week for me! Now not rough like oh I have no food or no where to live rough...not even like oh I need a snack but I am out of snacks rough...just a low on motivation week!
I weighed in with Weight Watchers last Tuesday and had lost a supremely minimal amount of weight! All I could think was, I only had a few hand fulls of chips out of the way but I knew I hadn't been perfect because of that and I had to remind myself of something I had said to someone else and it is true, at least I didn't gain!
But last week was one of those weeks where this lack of weight loss took a bit of a toll on my motivation. I worked out Monday and after that...well I didn't work out again until today. One day was due to weather, two days due to lack of motivation and then I was away the entire weekend so that was out of my control. But it just wasn't a good week for my head space which is odd for me when I am in crack down, work out mode but I guess it happens and I need to make sure I cut myself some slack every now and then.
I worked out tonight and then I learned tonight that it gives snow tomorrow night and also a storm on Wednesday, I am going to have to try and do something at home however our living room and being on the third floor, well it isn't conducive at all to the space I need to do my work outs. I just need winter to be over already and stop messing with me! So with Tuesday and Wednesday maybe being out I am going to have to work my butt off and go Thursday-Sunday, it might just have to happen that I enter a gym on a Sunday which is usually my cardinal day off!!
It was one of those times where I needed to be the cheerleader for myself and just couldn't be...but it is over and it is a new week and I will not let myself down again!
Thankfully that crap week was capped by the most amazing weekend away with Peter! For Christmas we decided to plan a weekend away instead of doing traditional gifts! It was perfect. The weather was winter time perfect with no snow but there was lots of snow on the ground, temperatures were just below zero and there was a hot tub outdoors! It was so fun! We spent time walking, talking and hot tubbing! Thank goodness it wasn't a hot tub time machine because the last thing I want to do is go back! It was just what we needed and it was heaven! Lastnight we also bottled 30 bottles of wine...that should be interesting!!! :)
In terms of going back, visiting your past. Would you want to? Even if it meant being able to change some of the bad things or maybe mistakes you recognize now? For me, never! I am turning 35 in March and I have done nothing but grow as a person and I couldn't imagine going back to the low self esteem, thinking I didn't deserve more person I was. There are things I would change for sure, believe you me, but I wouldn't even want to go back to those times in my life. I sometimes wake up from a dream that has taken me back to those places and I am SO thankful when I wake up to think, thank god that isn't my life now.
No one's life is perfect, past or present but I am at the place in life I want to be. Maybe with a bit more dreams fulfilled but they will come, I am confident of that.
But as a person, I realize I needed to find my happiness. That started with myself. I still have a few self image issues that I continue to work on but I know I am worthy of happiness and that makes a huge difference.
So what's to come? So much!! Life really is what you make it and sometimes you lose your footing or fall off course but it is about realizing that and making sure you put yourself first and stick with what you know is important. You are worth it, each and everyone of us!!
Here is a pic from our weekend! :)
Until next time...xx
I weighed in with Weight Watchers last Tuesday and had lost a supremely minimal amount of weight! All I could think was, I only had a few hand fulls of chips out of the way but I knew I hadn't been perfect because of that and I had to remind myself of something I had said to someone else and it is true, at least I didn't gain!
But last week was one of those weeks where this lack of weight loss took a bit of a toll on my motivation. I worked out Monday and after that...well I didn't work out again until today. One day was due to weather, two days due to lack of motivation and then I was away the entire weekend so that was out of my control. But it just wasn't a good week for my head space which is odd for me when I am in crack down, work out mode but I guess it happens and I need to make sure I cut myself some slack every now and then.
I worked out tonight and then I learned tonight that it gives snow tomorrow night and also a storm on Wednesday, I am going to have to try and do something at home however our living room and being on the third floor, well it isn't conducive at all to the space I need to do my work outs. I just need winter to be over already and stop messing with me! So with Tuesday and Wednesday maybe being out I am going to have to work my butt off and go Thursday-Sunday, it might just have to happen that I enter a gym on a Sunday which is usually my cardinal day off!!
It was one of those times where I needed to be the cheerleader for myself and just couldn't be...but it is over and it is a new week and I will not let myself down again!
Thankfully that crap week was capped by the most amazing weekend away with Peter! For Christmas we decided to plan a weekend away instead of doing traditional gifts! It was perfect. The weather was winter time perfect with no snow but there was lots of snow on the ground, temperatures were just below zero and there was a hot tub outdoors! It was so fun! We spent time walking, talking and hot tubbing! Thank goodness it wasn't a hot tub time machine because the last thing I want to do is go back! It was just what we needed and it was heaven! Lastnight we also bottled 30 bottles of wine...that should be interesting!!! :)
In terms of going back, visiting your past. Would you want to? Even if it meant being able to change some of the bad things or maybe mistakes you recognize now? For me, never! I am turning 35 in March and I have done nothing but grow as a person and I couldn't imagine going back to the low self esteem, thinking I didn't deserve more person I was. There are things I would change for sure, believe you me, but I wouldn't even want to go back to those times in my life. I sometimes wake up from a dream that has taken me back to those places and I am SO thankful when I wake up to think, thank god that isn't my life now.
No one's life is perfect, past or present but I am at the place in life I want to be. Maybe with a bit more dreams fulfilled but they will come, I am confident of that.
But as a person, I realize I needed to find my happiness. That started with myself. I still have a few self image issues that I continue to work on but I know I am worthy of happiness and that makes a huge difference.
So what's to come? So much!! Life really is what you make it and sometimes you lose your footing or fall off course but it is about realizing that and making sure you put yourself first and stick with what you know is important. You are worth it, each and everyone of us!!
Here is a pic from our weekend! :)
Until next time...xx
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Sweet Sunday!
I hope everyone had a lovely weekend! I certainly did...although it is quickly coming to a close as most good things must, at some point!!
The weekends are what the working folk live for!! I find when people are not in the workforce for whatever reason, days of the week don't matter quite as much! But when you do your Monday-Friday 9-5 (or some variation of such), those two days off in a row are the mecca! Everyone has a personal fave, it is either Friday and the anticipation of the closing bell and the beginning of freedom. Some enjoy the sweet release of Saturday, the day of complete freedom in regards to the weekend; a day where you are free to do what you want, when you want, for as late as you want (within legal confines of course!). As for me, I am a Sunday kind of girl!
Now, let's make it clear, every second of the weekend past 5pm on Friday is fantastic!! I just like the serene feeling of Sunday!! It is often times a quiet day, get a Starbucks, maybe go out for a bit, a nice walk if the weather allows, lounge about, maybe a nap, some reading, a good meal and it is great as well because for me this day is usually spent with Pete! He is not as much of a fan of Sunday as me but I quite relish in the day and it's simple pleasures! I never work out on Sundays so it is truly a day of relaxation for me. There are of course odd Sundays where this isn't the case but this is generally the way I get to spend that last day of a weekend before facing the work week ahead!
Today I had an especially lovely Sunday and also some evidence of will power paying off! :) We got up late today because we had some friends over lastnight, which was lovely! Today was going to be a Sunday to get stuff done, little things throughout the week that I had put off due to tiredness after the gym and not wanting to run errands. My first stop was lululemon! *groan* Yes, I know, whatever! BUT last Sunday I had to go there to pick up hemmed pants for my mother and I fell in LOVE with a jacket, the Rejuvenate jacket. It was quilted and soft and charcoal in color and perfect..but also $128! :( I however actually picked it up and stood in line with it but as I stood there a lot of thoughts ran through my head such as you have a wedding to pay for, you could put this money in your savings account, you could buy groceries for heaven's sake with this money...and finally the guilt overwhelmed me and I put it back. It was will power at it's finest b/c like I have mentioned in a past post, lulu brings on a luon haze where price has no meaning!! Throughout this week, I came to hear that very jacket was ON SALE! I went today and got it for $50 cheaper, yes probably still paid too much but in my mind, this was a meant to be purchase and well, it started my day out off great!
A picture to enjoy...again mine is dark grey! :)
I then wanted to buy a food scale! Doing WW, a lot of points are calculated by the weight of food and well for almost 9 years I have been guessing, I felt it was time to make it a bit more precise! While walking through the aisles I found a lovely little shelf which I instantly knew would help my bathroom clutter!! So simple, such a silly little thing but I was psyched! I came home and well, I even thought I would get to use a power drill but dammit, the angling was all wrong! In the end, I had to use a screw driver and well, it was only four screws....so it isn't like I built something but it felt good to put it up and then declutter my counter!!!
I also fulfilled a few other errands I won't bore you with, had some Starbucks (my weekend WW treat) and some wonderful time with Pete...it has been a lovely day!
I think days are about finding those simple pleasures, the little things that make your life a good place. It is very different for everyone and it really is according to what matters to you. All in all, life is good. I have the people I want in it and it is headed in the right direction...not everyday is perfect, far from it...but living a life I want truly is a blessing and a long time in coming!
On the WW front, things are good! Lastnight I did have a few handful of chips and I have come to terms with it today! It isn't going to affect my life on a grand scale and life goes on!
Currently reading: Water for Elephants
Cute pic of the day, my fur baby Shogun! :)
THANK YOU for stopping by!
Until next time...xx
The weekends are what the working folk live for!! I find when people are not in the workforce for whatever reason, days of the week don't matter quite as much! But when you do your Monday-Friday 9-5 (or some variation of such), those two days off in a row are the mecca! Everyone has a personal fave, it is either Friday and the anticipation of the closing bell and the beginning of freedom. Some enjoy the sweet release of Saturday, the day of complete freedom in regards to the weekend; a day where you are free to do what you want, when you want, for as late as you want (within legal confines of course!). As for me, I am a Sunday kind of girl!
Now, let's make it clear, every second of the weekend past 5pm on Friday is fantastic!! I just like the serene feeling of Sunday!! It is often times a quiet day, get a Starbucks, maybe go out for a bit, a nice walk if the weather allows, lounge about, maybe a nap, some reading, a good meal and it is great as well because for me this day is usually spent with Pete! He is not as much of a fan of Sunday as me but I quite relish in the day and it's simple pleasures! I never work out on Sundays so it is truly a day of relaxation for me. There are of course odd Sundays where this isn't the case but this is generally the way I get to spend that last day of a weekend before facing the work week ahead!
Today I had an especially lovely Sunday and also some evidence of will power paying off! :) We got up late today because we had some friends over lastnight, which was lovely! Today was going to be a Sunday to get stuff done, little things throughout the week that I had put off due to tiredness after the gym and not wanting to run errands. My first stop was lululemon! *groan* Yes, I know, whatever! BUT last Sunday I had to go there to pick up hemmed pants for my mother and I fell in LOVE with a jacket, the Rejuvenate jacket. It was quilted and soft and charcoal in color and perfect..but also $128! :( I however actually picked it up and stood in line with it but as I stood there a lot of thoughts ran through my head such as you have a wedding to pay for, you could put this money in your savings account, you could buy groceries for heaven's sake with this money...and finally the guilt overwhelmed me and I put it back. It was will power at it's finest b/c like I have mentioned in a past post, lulu brings on a luon haze where price has no meaning!! Throughout this week, I came to hear that very jacket was ON SALE! I went today and got it for $50 cheaper, yes probably still paid too much but in my mind, this was a meant to be purchase and well, it started my day out off great!
A picture to enjoy...again mine is dark grey! :)
I then wanted to buy a food scale! Doing WW, a lot of points are calculated by the weight of food and well for almost 9 years I have been guessing, I felt it was time to make it a bit more precise! While walking through the aisles I found a lovely little shelf which I instantly knew would help my bathroom clutter!! So simple, such a silly little thing but I was psyched! I came home and well, I even thought I would get to use a power drill but dammit, the angling was all wrong! In the end, I had to use a screw driver and well, it was only four screws....so it isn't like I built something but it felt good to put it up and then declutter my counter!!!
I also fulfilled a few other errands I won't bore you with, had some Starbucks (my weekend WW treat) and some wonderful time with Pete...it has been a lovely day!
I think days are about finding those simple pleasures, the little things that make your life a good place. It is very different for everyone and it really is according to what matters to you. All in all, life is good. I have the people I want in it and it is headed in the right direction...not everyday is perfect, far from it...but living a life I want truly is a blessing and a long time in coming!
On the WW front, things are good! Lastnight I did have a few handful of chips and I have come to terms with it today! It isn't going to affect my life on a grand scale and life goes on!
Currently reading: Water for Elephants
Cute pic of the day, my fur baby Shogun! :)
THANK YOU for stopping by!
Until next time...xx
Thursday, January 20, 2011
New Yum Yums! :)
Hello Everyone! Happy Thursday...my goodness, just one day until Friday and the blessed and amazing weekend! :)
We were supposed to head to Cape Breton this weekend but with the impending bad weather tomorrow, looks like we will be hanging around Halifax!
I am really into the swing of Weight Watchers! I finally got to go grocery shopping last night and explore some foods and get some things to enjoy eating while watching WHAT I eat. I did unfortunately forget my points calculator but I still made out okay! I know there are a lot of people who don't like grocery shopping and some days I don't either however most of the time, I enjoy browsing the aisles and looking at food maybe I haven't had before and could maybe incorporate into my eating plan to keep me engaged...although I have no intentions of becoming disengaged!
Some yum yums I found were: Weight Watcher Italian Wedding Soup, 4 points....I am not a huge soup person but with some crackers I like to give it a go. It was very tasty and satisfying as well! Now for the crackers...this is another yummy yum I found! Triscuit Parmesan and Garlic crackers! Yummy triangles of goodness! They are so tasty and flavorful! It is 10 crackers for 2 points, I mean, you cannot go wrong!! You don't want to think I didn't have 20 of those suckers with my soup! YUM!
Another yummy discovery is Skinny Cow *NEW* Cookies and Cream ice cream sandwich, also four points! That shall be my 9pm snack and last food of the day!!!!
Tonight I also got some blue menu spicy rice with edamame that I am going to try AND some steel cut oats with blueberries I intend to try for breakfast tomorrow! Weight Watchers is amazing because it lets you eat and make your menu for yourself! You aren't cutting anything out. When you remove something such as giving up sugar or carbs or whatever it might be, when you start eating it again, it's going to get messy!!
WW isn't for everyone and not everyone believes in it but again, I definitely stand behind it...and less of my behind stands behind it which is the best part!!! ;)
So I also worked out like a crazy woman this week, or at least it felt that way! My body is extra sore and tired as the end of this week arrives. I went to Combat two nights in a row, lastnight I did upper body weights, 3 sets and cardio and tonight I did yoga/pilates! I intend to go to RPM for 75 minutes on Saturday to round out my five days! I love the feeling of control over my body. There are things that might be happening inside that I don't know about and cannot control, but what I know is that I am doing many good things to ensure I am doing my part!! Nature cannot be controlled but I have to play an active role in my health and well being. I want to be an active person until the end and live my life to it's fullest!!
I did however make a discovery today that I am trying to move past! I have a close friend whose wedding I am in on July 30th, they got engaged before us. Pete and I then got engaged and I didn't want to get married before my friend, not that it mattered but I just felt it appropriate! Unfortunately today I realized that if I had taken the time to look at the calendar I would have seen that, July 16th, the day Pete and I met, is on a Saturday and we very well could have gotten married on the anniversary of the day we met. It is too late to change all of the many things we have booked and I realize now we will just have two special days to celebrate instead of one...although that would have been perfect!!
Anyway, I need to move past it and August 27th will be an amazingly incredible day we will never forget...as is July 16th!!!
Until next time...xx
We were supposed to head to Cape Breton this weekend but with the impending bad weather tomorrow, looks like we will be hanging around Halifax!
I am really into the swing of Weight Watchers! I finally got to go grocery shopping last night and explore some foods and get some things to enjoy eating while watching WHAT I eat. I did unfortunately forget my points calculator but I still made out okay! I know there are a lot of people who don't like grocery shopping and some days I don't either however most of the time, I enjoy browsing the aisles and looking at food maybe I haven't had before and could maybe incorporate into my eating plan to keep me engaged...although I have no intentions of becoming disengaged!
Some yum yums I found were: Weight Watcher Italian Wedding Soup, 4 points....I am not a huge soup person but with some crackers I like to give it a go. It was very tasty and satisfying as well! Now for the crackers...this is another yummy yum I found! Triscuit Parmesan and Garlic crackers! Yummy triangles of goodness! They are so tasty and flavorful! It is 10 crackers for 2 points, I mean, you cannot go wrong!! You don't want to think I didn't have 20 of those suckers with my soup! YUM!
Another yummy discovery is Skinny Cow *NEW* Cookies and Cream ice cream sandwich, also four points! That shall be my 9pm snack and last food of the day!!!!
Tonight I also got some blue menu spicy rice with edamame that I am going to try AND some steel cut oats with blueberries I intend to try for breakfast tomorrow! Weight Watchers is amazing because it lets you eat and make your menu for yourself! You aren't cutting anything out. When you remove something such as giving up sugar or carbs or whatever it might be, when you start eating it again, it's going to get messy!!
WW isn't for everyone and not everyone believes in it but again, I definitely stand behind it...and less of my behind stands behind it which is the best part!!! ;)
So I also worked out like a crazy woman this week, or at least it felt that way! My body is extra sore and tired as the end of this week arrives. I went to Combat two nights in a row, lastnight I did upper body weights, 3 sets and cardio and tonight I did yoga/pilates! I intend to go to RPM for 75 minutes on Saturday to round out my five days! I love the feeling of control over my body. There are things that might be happening inside that I don't know about and cannot control, but what I know is that I am doing many good things to ensure I am doing my part!! Nature cannot be controlled but I have to play an active role in my health and well being. I want to be an active person until the end and live my life to it's fullest!!
I did however make a discovery today that I am trying to move past! I have a close friend whose wedding I am in on July 30th, they got engaged before us. Pete and I then got engaged and I didn't want to get married before my friend, not that it mattered but I just felt it appropriate! Unfortunately today I realized that if I had taken the time to look at the calendar I would have seen that, July 16th, the day Pete and I met, is on a Saturday and we very well could have gotten married on the anniversary of the day we met. It is too late to change all of the many things we have booked and I realize now we will just have two special days to celebrate instead of one...although that would have been perfect!!
Anyway, I need to move past it and August 27th will be an amazingly incredible day we will never forget...as is July 16th!!!
Until next time...xx
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Randomness....
So what's up!? How is life treating you? Are things well? How are the kids? How are the pets?
Good to hear, good to hear! :)
Oh you have a little crumb on your cheek there! No your right cheek...oh there you go! ;)
I am just settling down after a great work out and a great post work out chat about my new weight regime I am trying to create with the help of a caring and knowledgeable friend!
Like I said 2011 is my year to switch it up, amp it up, be Meggan 2.0!!
(It is pretty bad when you write your own name in your own blog and it gives you the red squiggly underline like it is spelled wrong...bah!)
I actually remember Miss Swaine in the 2nd grade, we had to write out our full name, as we were at that stage of learning the true basics in life. Now I think my mom may have been on some drugs and my Dad wanted to make me "special" when they picked out the spelling of my first and middle names. So Meggan, yes two g's! How many times in my life have I heard "oh two g's, I haven't seen it spelled like that before!" OMG REALLY, WELL PLEASED TO MEET YOU! And then my middle name, Dorthy...one 'O'. Really they should have dropped a consonant and added a vowel but whatever.
Anyway so Miss Swaine, once she saw me write my odd Meggan and then the clearly 'misspelled' Dorthy made me write lines...made me write my name over and over and over. Damn her eyes. I tried to plead my case but she wanted none of it! So I marched home, all scorned and such, and the next day brought in my birth certificate; I needed to prove those lines she had made me write were all for naught. I expected an apology, at least...I just got kind of a sneer and now as an adult I realize she was probably thinking, "what was this kid's parent's smoking!?"
My new weight routine right now in it's creation stages scares me a bit. I have had an AMAZING personal trainer in the past, over a year ago now. I trained with Amanda for about 1.5 years and it was awesome. She motivated me, she made me laugh, she made me cry, she made me work...and it was a great experience. My fear of this new regime is being able to push myself hard enough. With the upcoming year and many expenses associated with it, getting another personal trainer just isn't in the cards right now. I am going to have to dig really deep and find it within myself to get this done. I also have to think, it will be more than I am doing now.
I am going to keep things to 5 days but two of those days go twice to break up cardio and weights. So three total days of weights plus pretty much 5 days of cardio, it is going to be SUPER intense and it is going to take a lot of stamina and dedication on my part. But really, do I want this or do I just want to freaking talk about it? I hate this saying but truly, I need to get real!!! So that is in the development stages and I hope to have it in place within a week or two, that should be interesting and I will be sure to blog about my progress!
Wedding planning is coming along marvelously!! I am so excited! I know it is only January but that means 221 days and I want it to be stress free so I am planning early to enjoy it at the time! Although let's be real, for those who know me, I enjoy me a good plan. I have toned it down from my death grip on needing a plan but I enjoy seeing things come together. I will be especially proud of this because I have had such a big hand in it, unlike my last nuptials and it is going to be amazing...plus I get to marry my person, eeeek!!!!
On a final note, weight watchers is still going well. I am down 2.8 pounds in a week, so that was awesome! I figure I lost a lot of water weight on the cleanse (um yeah) so this might have been actual weight lost this week which is rather exciting and the control is awesome! :)
Ok, that is all for now! Thanks for stopping by!
Until next time...xx
Good to hear, good to hear! :)
Oh you have a little crumb on your cheek there! No your right cheek...oh there you go! ;)
I am just settling down after a great work out and a great post work out chat about my new weight regime I am trying to create with the help of a caring and knowledgeable friend!
Like I said 2011 is my year to switch it up, amp it up, be Meggan 2.0!!
(It is pretty bad when you write your own name in your own blog and it gives you the red squiggly underline like it is spelled wrong...bah!)
I actually remember Miss Swaine in the 2nd grade, we had to write out our full name, as we were at that stage of learning the true basics in life. Now I think my mom may have been on some drugs and my Dad wanted to make me "special" when they picked out the spelling of my first and middle names. So Meggan, yes two g's! How many times in my life have I heard "oh two g's, I haven't seen it spelled like that before!" OMG REALLY, WELL PLEASED TO MEET YOU! And then my middle name, Dorthy...one 'O'. Really they should have dropped a consonant and added a vowel but whatever.
Anyway so Miss Swaine, once she saw me write my odd Meggan and then the clearly 'misspelled' Dorthy made me write lines...made me write my name over and over and over. Damn her eyes. I tried to plead my case but she wanted none of it! So I marched home, all scorned and such, and the next day brought in my birth certificate; I needed to prove those lines she had made me write were all for naught. I expected an apology, at least...I just got kind of a sneer and now as an adult I realize she was probably thinking, "what was this kid's parent's smoking!?"
My new weight routine right now in it's creation stages scares me a bit. I have had an AMAZING personal trainer in the past, over a year ago now. I trained with Amanda for about 1.5 years and it was awesome. She motivated me, she made me laugh, she made me cry, she made me work...and it was a great experience. My fear of this new regime is being able to push myself hard enough. With the upcoming year and many expenses associated with it, getting another personal trainer just isn't in the cards right now. I am going to have to dig really deep and find it within myself to get this done. I also have to think, it will be more than I am doing now.
I am going to keep things to 5 days but two of those days go twice to break up cardio and weights. So three total days of weights plus pretty much 5 days of cardio, it is going to be SUPER intense and it is going to take a lot of stamina and dedication on my part. But really, do I want this or do I just want to freaking talk about it? I hate this saying but truly, I need to get real!!! So that is in the development stages and I hope to have it in place within a week or two, that should be interesting and I will be sure to blog about my progress!
Wedding planning is coming along marvelously!! I am so excited! I know it is only January but that means 221 days and I want it to be stress free so I am planning early to enjoy it at the time! Although let's be real, for those who know me, I enjoy me a good plan. I have toned it down from my death grip on needing a plan but I enjoy seeing things come together. I will be especially proud of this because I have had such a big hand in it, unlike my last nuptials and it is going to be amazing...plus I get to marry my person, eeeek!!!!
On a final note, weight watchers is still going well. I am down 2.8 pounds in a week, so that was awesome! I figure I lost a lot of water weight on the cleanse (um yeah) so this might have been actual weight lost this week which is rather exciting and the control is awesome! :)
Ok, that is all for now! Thanks for stopping by!
Until next time...xx
Friday, January 14, 2011
Will Power...what is it and why do we have it or not have it?
So I am doing the new Weight Watchers and I love it. It doesn't mean though that I don't have moments where I am just hungry and well, it isn't the time to eat.....
It happens, everyone has their weaknesses and some people give in sometimes, almost never and almost always!
Will power is a funny thing. It isn't tangible, we can't hold it, we can't see it....we just must enforce it in our lives or not.
I see will power as denying yourself something that is wanted but not needed...and it can apply to a lot of things in life really. A lot of people associate will power with food but it applies to relationships, shopping, drinking, really, many things.
Let's start with food first of all because I think that is a big one and really depending on what your vice is, will power may come into play here the most...or not!!
Before I made the decision to lose weight, I didn't deny myself anything. I ate with free will; now that isn't to say guilt didn't accompany the eating but I never stopped because of it, my god, are you mad!? This was my life and my body and if I wanted to eat the entire bag of sour cream and onion ruffles, then dammit, I would...*mmm sour cream and onion ruffles*. Shit, what was I talking about? Ah yes, but once I made the decision to lose weight I became a will power rock star!!!!
During my initial weight loss which was also assisted by Weight Watchers (and the gym), I didn't even eat a hard candy if it wasn't within my daily alloted points. I meant business. I didn't deny myself when I felt an intense urge but I always made sure it fit into my points.
Since that time, I have mostly behaved during the week and ate a bit more freely on the weekends. I have had times such as in 2007 where I knew it was time to get serious again and I lost about 20 pounds and right now in my life, I am having another stage where I am getting serious...but thankfully it didn't get too out of hand, I am just tightening the reins.
This cleanse also demonstrated to me my will power and it's mighty, well, power.
I feel will power is a choice and this is just my opinion. You either choose to eat the brownie or you choose not to. It is up to you. You most likely don't need that brownie (unless your cupboards are maybe otherwise bare) and to eat it is a choice. Not to say it is bad if you do because maybe it is a treat or what not but if you are just eating to eat it, that might be a lack of will power or restraint, if you will.
Weight watchers works for me because it gives me control and feeds into my will power. Some people say they don't want to spend their lives counting points, okay well don't and hopefully you find what works for you but this is what works for me and the control I get from it makes me feel better as soon as I restart the program! There is definitely a psychological aspect to it for me.
Now let's talk a bit about will power in other things.
Let's take relationships for example. People are in toxic relationships, people are in relationships where they aren't treated like they should be, people are in relationships where they are super happy, of course there are all different kinds. Breaking up and getting back together constantly or accepting things because well it is easier, that might have something to do with will power, mixed in with a bunch of other complicated factors.
I have often times had the lack of will power when it comes to saying I am sorry. It isn't as bad now, but it used to be MUCH worse. I am someone who craves peace in a relationship, I hate arguments and fighting, almost too much. This has led to my past problem, saying I am sorry when I didn't do anything wrong just to ensure peace. Now this would apply to both friendships and romantic relationships. To combat this, I have had to use will power to stop myself from saying sorry. Sometimes it is okay and necessary to say it but other times, it isn't healthy and things will just naturally work themselves out without the constant "I am sorry". Some people are extreme the other way and never choose to say "I am sorry" which is just as bad as most extremes can be!
Shopping, oh dear! Now this is where I have a bit of a problem!! Unless money is really on my mind (and it is these days with so much going on or coming up), I have a tendency to buy things I want regardless. Not extravagant big ticket items but just jeans when I find ones that fit nicely, fun new make-up or shoes I don't need or yet another jacket to go with the 20 I already have. I have a particularly hard time with lululemon! A place where the price is high and you would think, umm no way in hell I am spending $100 for a hoodie. For some damn reason, that doesn't really enter my head in that store. It is like I am in a luon haze!! Now take me to another store where there is a hoodie for $100 and I am like, WTF, as if I would pay that!!?? So that is one place where my will power seems to be non existent sadly. I wish this were applicable to somewhere like Giant Tiger not expensive lululemon! :(
I guess I wrote this because an element of Weight Watchers is about will power because no one is forcing you to follow the program, you have to want it. You have to be dedicated and determined and in the right mind set and yes, a big part of this is enforcing will power. Even going to the gym requires will power, to get off that comfy couch and go put your body through discomfort, it doesn't sound fun and well sometimes it isn't but it again, is a choice!
What do you have issues enforcing your will power with or where do you display great will power!? Leave me your comments! :)
I would also love it if you want to take a couple of minutes and create a login and officially "follow me" (if you aren't already and if you are, THANKS)! You don't have to of course but I would love to see who my blog is reaching!!
Thanks for stopping by!!
Until next time...xx
It happens, everyone has their weaknesses and some people give in sometimes, almost never and almost always!
Will power is a funny thing. It isn't tangible, we can't hold it, we can't see it....we just must enforce it in our lives or not.
I see will power as denying yourself something that is wanted but not needed...and it can apply to a lot of things in life really. A lot of people associate will power with food but it applies to relationships, shopping, drinking, really, many things.
Let's start with food first of all because I think that is a big one and really depending on what your vice is, will power may come into play here the most...or not!!
Before I made the decision to lose weight, I didn't deny myself anything. I ate with free will; now that isn't to say guilt didn't accompany the eating but I never stopped because of it, my god, are you mad!? This was my life and my body and if I wanted to eat the entire bag of sour cream and onion ruffles, then dammit, I would...*mmm sour cream and onion ruffles*. Shit, what was I talking about? Ah yes, but once I made the decision to lose weight I became a will power rock star!!!!
During my initial weight loss which was also assisted by Weight Watchers (and the gym), I didn't even eat a hard candy if it wasn't within my daily alloted points. I meant business. I didn't deny myself when I felt an intense urge but I always made sure it fit into my points.
Since that time, I have mostly behaved during the week and ate a bit more freely on the weekends. I have had times such as in 2007 where I knew it was time to get serious again and I lost about 20 pounds and right now in my life, I am having another stage where I am getting serious...but thankfully it didn't get too out of hand, I am just tightening the reins.
This cleanse also demonstrated to me my will power and it's mighty, well, power.
I feel will power is a choice and this is just my opinion. You either choose to eat the brownie or you choose not to. It is up to you. You most likely don't need that brownie (unless your cupboards are maybe otherwise bare) and to eat it is a choice. Not to say it is bad if you do because maybe it is a treat or what not but if you are just eating to eat it, that might be a lack of will power or restraint, if you will.
Weight watchers works for me because it gives me control and feeds into my will power. Some people say they don't want to spend their lives counting points, okay well don't and hopefully you find what works for you but this is what works for me and the control I get from it makes me feel better as soon as I restart the program! There is definitely a psychological aspect to it for me.
Now let's talk a bit about will power in other things.
Let's take relationships for example. People are in toxic relationships, people are in relationships where they aren't treated like they should be, people are in relationships where they are super happy, of course there are all different kinds. Breaking up and getting back together constantly or accepting things because well it is easier, that might have something to do with will power, mixed in with a bunch of other complicated factors.
I have often times had the lack of will power when it comes to saying I am sorry. It isn't as bad now, but it used to be MUCH worse. I am someone who craves peace in a relationship, I hate arguments and fighting, almost too much. This has led to my past problem, saying I am sorry when I didn't do anything wrong just to ensure peace. Now this would apply to both friendships and romantic relationships. To combat this, I have had to use will power to stop myself from saying sorry. Sometimes it is okay and necessary to say it but other times, it isn't healthy and things will just naturally work themselves out without the constant "I am sorry". Some people are extreme the other way and never choose to say "I am sorry" which is just as bad as most extremes can be!
Shopping, oh dear! Now this is where I have a bit of a problem!! Unless money is really on my mind (and it is these days with so much going on or coming up), I have a tendency to buy things I want regardless. Not extravagant big ticket items but just jeans when I find ones that fit nicely, fun new make-up or shoes I don't need or yet another jacket to go with the 20 I already have. I have a particularly hard time with lululemon! A place where the price is high and you would think, umm no way in hell I am spending $100 for a hoodie. For some damn reason, that doesn't really enter my head in that store. It is like I am in a luon haze!! Now take me to another store where there is a hoodie for $100 and I am like, WTF, as if I would pay that!!?? So that is one place where my will power seems to be non existent sadly. I wish this were applicable to somewhere like Giant Tiger not expensive lululemon! :(
I guess I wrote this because an element of Weight Watchers is about will power because no one is forcing you to follow the program, you have to want it. You have to be dedicated and determined and in the right mind set and yes, a big part of this is enforcing will power. Even going to the gym requires will power, to get off that comfy couch and go put your body through discomfort, it doesn't sound fun and well sometimes it isn't but it again, is a choice!
What do you have issues enforcing your will power with or where do you display great will power!? Leave me your comments! :)
I would also love it if you want to take a couple of minutes and create a login and officially "follow me" (if you aren't already and if you are, THANKS)! You don't have to of course but I would love to see who my blog is reaching!!
Thanks for stopping by!!
Until next time...xx
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
The cheerleader I never got to be....because I was chubby and well, our cheerleaders sucked!
Lastnight was an amazing evening! A new fitness club with my company opened up in Dartmouth and I was able to attend the Grand Opening.
I was going, not really sure what I was going to do, but I was excited to witness it all. I got there and people started coming through the doors fast and furious!
My role ended up being giving tours of the new facility! I literally toured groups for 4 hours and it was AMAZING! The facility is incredible and it was the first time people were getting a look at it. It was an amazing night and only when I stopped and thought about it did I feel tired and hungry because I was so energized by the possibility this gym would/could bring to people!
Some people don't believe in going to gyms and that is cool, especially if you can work out on your own and be successful, kudos to you!! But then there are some people who don't even get off the couch and the statistics are frightening about obesity in this country, especially amongst children.
I am not here to judge anyone because I honestly feel everyone has something in terms of health and fitness they could be working on. I had a discussion tonight that thin doesn't always equal healthy. So when I see a thin, seemingly fit person going to the gym or joining a gym, I don't snide, "well you don't need to work out." I used to, definitely, out of bitterness, I think. I would feel the guilt of doing nothing myself and therefore use that to judge others. Or I would hear someone who I thought looked great say, oh I need to work on this or oh I need to lose five pounds, my immediate reaction would be, are you crazy? No you don't!!
I have curbed that habit because unless someone is going to the extreme, they know their body best and what they should look/feel like to be comfortable and healthy.
I also don't judge if someone is overweight. I have been there and it is hard. It is hard to find clothes to fit you well, it is hard to feel like people are always looking at you for the wrong reasons, it is hard to feel self conscious to even eat in public, let alone work out.
You know what else is hard, the journey to being healthy and fit. If it is 5 pounds of 50 pounds, it didn't get there overnight therefore, it won't go away overnight.
Fitness goals are different for everyone...I think it is just amazing when someone HAS a fitness goal!
I have discovered I love motivating! I feel I am a pretty motivated person, most of the time anyway. I try to eat well, I try to get to the gym 4-5 days a week and I love hearing about other people and their routines as well. Everyone needs a boost every now and then and if I can give just one person a pep talk to keep on keeping on, it is awesome!
Working in the fitness industry has given me the opportunity to meet some amazing people! People who live their life the very way I aspire to. People who believe that caring about someone, giving them a place to work out where they feel is comfortable and not overwhelming actually matters. People giving people the tools to live longer, healthier lives, it is a beautiful thing really!
I went back to Weight Watchers tonight, it is a program that works for me. Everyone is different and it really is about doing what works for you. They have a new Points Plus program and I am excited to get started tomorrow. I have some poundage I am looking to lose and am ready to lose it.
I guess what my point is with the ramblings is..I love seeing people live better lives. Whether it means getting up and walking 5 minutes, the next day doing 10, and so on. Just being active in some way will make a difference and it is so amazing to be able to be proud of yourself for something rather than feel guilty about that extra slice of cake or pizza you ate. I still eat pizza and cake but I make sure I work for it.
Life really is about a healthy balance and I wish that for everyone!
Until next time...
I was going, not really sure what I was going to do, but I was excited to witness it all. I got there and people started coming through the doors fast and furious!
My role ended up being giving tours of the new facility! I literally toured groups for 4 hours and it was AMAZING! The facility is incredible and it was the first time people were getting a look at it. It was an amazing night and only when I stopped and thought about it did I feel tired and hungry because I was so energized by the possibility this gym would/could bring to people!
Some people don't believe in going to gyms and that is cool, especially if you can work out on your own and be successful, kudos to you!! But then there are some people who don't even get off the couch and the statistics are frightening about obesity in this country, especially amongst children.
I am not here to judge anyone because I honestly feel everyone has something in terms of health and fitness they could be working on. I had a discussion tonight that thin doesn't always equal healthy. So when I see a thin, seemingly fit person going to the gym or joining a gym, I don't snide, "well you don't need to work out." I used to, definitely, out of bitterness, I think. I would feel the guilt of doing nothing myself and therefore use that to judge others. Or I would hear someone who I thought looked great say, oh I need to work on this or oh I need to lose five pounds, my immediate reaction would be, are you crazy? No you don't!!
I have curbed that habit because unless someone is going to the extreme, they know their body best and what they should look/feel like to be comfortable and healthy.
I also don't judge if someone is overweight. I have been there and it is hard. It is hard to find clothes to fit you well, it is hard to feel like people are always looking at you for the wrong reasons, it is hard to feel self conscious to even eat in public, let alone work out.
You know what else is hard, the journey to being healthy and fit. If it is 5 pounds of 50 pounds, it didn't get there overnight therefore, it won't go away overnight.
Fitness goals are different for everyone...I think it is just amazing when someone HAS a fitness goal!
I have discovered I love motivating! I feel I am a pretty motivated person, most of the time anyway. I try to eat well, I try to get to the gym 4-5 days a week and I love hearing about other people and their routines as well. Everyone needs a boost every now and then and if I can give just one person a pep talk to keep on keeping on, it is awesome!
Working in the fitness industry has given me the opportunity to meet some amazing people! People who live their life the very way I aspire to. People who believe that caring about someone, giving them a place to work out where they feel is comfortable and not overwhelming actually matters. People giving people the tools to live longer, healthier lives, it is a beautiful thing really!
I went back to Weight Watchers tonight, it is a program that works for me. Everyone is different and it really is about doing what works for you. They have a new Points Plus program and I am excited to get started tomorrow. I have some poundage I am looking to lose and am ready to lose it.
I guess what my point is with the ramblings is..I love seeing people live better lives. Whether it means getting up and walking 5 minutes, the next day doing 10, and so on. Just being active in some way will make a difference and it is so amazing to be able to be proud of yourself for something rather than feel guilty about that extra slice of cake or pizza you ate. I still eat pizza and cake but I make sure I work for it.
Life really is about a healthy balance and I wish that for everyone!
Until next time...
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Decluttering...ah sweet release!
So with mine and Pete's foray into the world of wine making, we had to come up with an actual spot to house this wine.
I am sure those of you who are apparently bored and therefore reading my wee blog (thanks again, you rock) can relate, when we moved in together we took all of our belongings, all our crap from two apartments, and co-mingled our stuff into one living space. Moving is stressful and let's face it, a pain in the ass so we didn't necessarily sort through everything. We packed up a lot of stuff, got moved in and didn't want to then sort it out so it got put into boxes and put into our spare room closet.
Pete is much more of a minimalist than I. I will definitely admit that. I like having stuff. Now I am not totally materialistic but I like a good thing or two. I am also not much of a house cleaner but I don't enjoy disarray or clutter. However when it is magically stuffed in a closet, it isn't clutter...it is out of sight, out of mind.
So we decided it was finally time to sort it out and prepare for when we have luscious bottles of wine ready to drink at any time at our disposal (hmmm, this could be a problem that starts with AA) ;). It turned out surprisingly however that most of the crap was not mine. I had a few bins and a few small boxes but most of it turned out to be his which was a slight bit amusing to me! There was some stuff that could be considered both of ours such as Christmas decorations and a sleeping bag but most of it really wasn't mine. Sorting through it was like a blast from the past so I just gave him his space and he worked his way through it, some of it was interesting and neat to see.
What we now have is a lovely space which has actually decluttered the room itself by being able to put a few more things away and also it has opened up a great spot in the closet for our future winery! It felt good to carry out those garbage bags filled with our past and those boxes that held long lost memories we hadn't visited in a while. It made me feel almost lighter, like we were moving forward and preparing for the new.
It also got me thinking of the clutter we, as in people, can have in our actual lives, not just our homes. Whether it is a relationship that is past it's due date but we stay in it because it is comfortable or that friendship that is there because there is a history but really doesn't have any current relevance.
In this world of "Facebook Friends", our lives really are cluttered (and not necessarily in a negative way) with those kinds of relationships. I don't always think of this stuff independently but this is where Peter plays such a big role in my life and looks at things differently and makes me think, yeah, I never looked at it that way.
But I don't really have 318 close and personal friends, I would like to but it is impossible (no one is able to really). I mean, I think I am a pretty likable girl but I am not quite "that" popular. And even before Facebook I thought that having a lot of friends, even if they were just acquaintances, was the way to go but really, it isn't possible with so much going on in our lives to maintain very many close, personal relationships. Over the past few years, my real life friends list has dwindled and I am actually okay with that. Some have self selected out and others have just faded into the night which I also think is a natural part of life. I want to have close meaningful relationships, not just "hey, how are you" friends. I want people who I want to make a priority and who want to do the same with me. Now don't get me wrong, everyone needs/wants/has "hey how are you" friends who you see on occasion or people who you want to catch up with every now and then, I mean, that is really why the Facebook addiction and "relevance" exists. There can be many layers of your social sphere but be careful, this is where the clutter starts! (I sound like an f'ing life coach here, haha)
So clutter can happen anywhere, whether it be in our homes, our closets or in our relationships with others. I think it all comes down to making your world, your space, your life a priority and keeping order in that world. Moving on from something that is cluttering your life is freeing, liberating and highly recommended!
Currently Reading (ironically): "Friends Like Us" by Caitlin Davies
Until next time...xx
I am sure those of you who are apparently bored and therefore reading my wee blog (thanks again, you rock) can relate, when we moved in together we took all of our belongings, all our crap from two apartments, and co-mingled our stuff into one living space. Moving is stressful and let's face it, a pain in the ass so we didn't necessarily sort through everything. We packed up a lot of stuff, got moved in and didn't want to then sort it out so it got put into boxes and put into our spare room closet.
Pete is much more of a minimalist than I. I will definitely admit that. I like having stuff. Now I am not totally materialistic but I like a good thing or two. I am also not much of a house cleaner but I don't enjoy disarray or clutter. However when it is magically stuffed in a closet, it isn't clutter...it is out of sight, out of mind.
So we decided it was finally time to sort it out and prepare for when we have luscious bottles of wine ready to drink at any time at our disposal (hmmm, this could be a problem that starts with AA) ;). It turned out surprisingly however that most of the crap was not mine. I had a few bins and a few small boxes but most of it turned out to be his which was a slight bit amusing to me! There was some stuff that could be considered both of ours such as Christmas decorations and a sleeping bag but most of it really wasn't mine. Sorting through it was like a blast from the past so I just gave him his space and he worked his way through it, some of it was interesting and neat to see.
What we now have is a lovely space which has actually decluttered the room itself by being able to put a few more things away and also it has opened up a great spot in the closet for our future winery! It felt good to carry out those garbage bags filled with our past and those boxes that held long lost memories we hadn't visited in a while. It made me feel almost lighter, like we were moving forward and preparing for the new.
It also got me thinking of the clutter we, as in people, can have in our actual lives, not just our homes. Whether it is a relationship that is past it's due date but we stay in it because it is comfortable or that friendship that is there because there is a history but really doesn't have any current relevance.
In this world of "Facebook Friends", our lives really are cluttered (and not necessarily in a negative way) with those kinds of relationships. I don't always think of this stuff independently but this is where Peter plays such a big role in my life and looks at things differently and makes me think, yeah, I never looked at it that way.
But I don't really have 318 close and personal friends, I would like to but it is impossible (no one is able to really). I mean, I think I am a pretty likable girl but I am not quite "that" popular. And even before Facebook I thought that having a lot of friends, even if they were just acquaintances, was the way to go but really, it isn't possible with so much going on in our lives to maintain very many close, personal relationships. Over the past few years, my real life friends list has dwindled and I am actually okay with that. Some have self selected out and others have just faded into the night which I also think is a natural part of life. I want to have close meaningful relationships, not just "hey, how are you" friends. I want people who I want to make a priority and who want to do the same with me. Now don't get me wrong, everyone needs/wants/has "hey how are you" friends who you see on occasion or people who you want to catch up with every now and then, I mean, that is really why the Facebook addiction and "relevance" exists. There can be many layers of your social sphere but be careful, this is where the clutter starts! (I sound like an f'ing life coach here, haha)
So clutter can happen anywhere, whether it be in our homes, our closets or in our relationships with others. I think it all comes down to making your world, your space, your life a priority and keeping order in that world. Moving on from something that is cluttering your life is freeing, liberating and highly recommended!
Currently Reading (ironically): "Friends Like Us" by Caitlin Davies
Until next time...xx
Saturday, January 8, 2011
Annnnnnnnnnnnnd that's all folks!!!
So today I made a very hard decision to end my cleanse.
I know, I know, I was doing so good and well, I really was!
Days 1 and 2 weren't bad at all, I was doing just fine, although eating would have been let's say, pleasant.
Day 3 was SUPER tough for me. I was hungry from 1pm until bedtime and I fought with myself not to break it. I did end up having a rice cake and it did tide me over but I was soooo hungry.
Today, day 4, I actually had a much better day at it. I wasn't really that hungry and I felt okay.
For some reason though as the day went on I just kept feeling like, okay I think I need to stop. I cannot explain it, maybe my intuition but I listened and came to the conclusion that my time with this foray into the world of The Master Cleanse was over for me, my hungry journey was complete, let's say!
I have very mixed feelings about this surprisingly!
I am not a quitter. I usually do things for too long such as leave things unsaid for too long or let relationships go on for too long that I should have ended years prior, I stick around with things even to the detriment of me. I don't consider myself a stubborn person but I guess with some things I am.
So to stop this cleanse was very hard for me, actually it stirred up some emotions.
The thing is I know I could have done the 10 days, something was just telling me it was time to be done and I listened...and well, I am okay with that.
I am actually very proud of the four days I did and I really do have self discipline and huge will power. I do recognize this and was able to prove that myself once and for all. I also am proud that even though everyone knew about my cleanse and was interested in hearing about how it was going, I am not ashamed to end it. (thanks Brianna). I know a lot of people couldn't do four days...so it is something to be proud of. But I am also proud of the fact that I actually listened to myself and stopped it.
I am also glad I did it. I do hope in some way, I cleaned things up a bit in there and now I will start fresh and eat well and exercise and get it done!! I am going to go back to Weight Watchers on Tuesday just to stay on track and over the weekend I am making up my new exercise plan. My intention this year is to change the landscape of my body and I will work hard to do that while still having fun and enjoying life because really, what is life with out a little shimmy and shake every now and then!?
I also need to give props to Peter who I thought would rant and rave about me doing this cleanse but besides making his feelings known once, he allowed me the space to try it and explore it for myself and that is why I love you!
I also know a lot of people were concerned about me doing this cleanse and well, that just makes me feel loved and I appreciate that so much!
So my focus going forward....the food I am intaking, proper exercise and working on my novel! I think it sounds like a dandy plan to me!!
Until next time...xx
I know, I know, I was doing so good and well, I really was!
Days 1 and 2 weren't bad at all, I was doing just fine, although eating would have been let's say, pleasant.
Day 3 was SUPER tough for me. I was hungry from 1pm until bedtime and I fought with myself not to break it. I did end up having a rice cake and it did tide me over but I was soooo hungry.
Today, day 4, I actually had a much better day at it. I wasn't really that hungry and I felt okay.
For some reason though as the day went on I just kept feeling like, okay I think I need to stop. I cannot explain it, maybe my intuition but I listened and came to the conclusion that my time with this foray into the world of The Master Cleanse was over for me, my hungry journey was complete, let's say!
I have very mixed feelings about this surprisingly!
I am not a quitter. I usually do things for too long such as leave things unsaid for too long or let relationships go on for too long that I should have ended years prior, I stick around with things even to the detriment of me. I don't consider myself a stubborn person but I guess with some things I am.
So to stop this cleanse was very hard for me, actually it stirred up some emotions.
The thing is I know I could have done the 10 days, something was just telling me it was time to be done and I listened...and well, I am okay with that.
I am actually very proud of the four days I did and I really do have self discipline and huge will power. I do recognize this and was able to prove that myself once and for all. I also am proud that even though everyone knew about my cleanse and was interested in hearing about how it was going, I am not ashamed to end it. (thanks Brianna). I know a lot of people couldn't do four days...so it is something to be proud of. But I am also proud of the fact that I actually listened to myself and stopped it.
I am also glad I did it. I do hope in some way, I cleaned things up a bit in there and now I will start fresh and eat well and exercise and get it done!! I am going to go back to Weight Watchers on Tuesday just to stay on track and over the weekend I am making up my new exercise plan. My intention this year is to change the landscape of my body and I will work hard to do that while still having fun and enjoying life because really, what is life with out a little shimmy and shake every now and then!?
I also need to give props to Peter who I thought would rant and rave about me doing this cleanse but besides making his feelings known once, he allowed me the space to try it and explore it for myself and that is why I love you!
I also know a lot of people were concerned about me doing this cleanse and well, that just makes me feel loved and I appreciate that so much!
So my focus going forward....the food I am intaking, proper exercise and working on my novel! I think it sounds like a dandy plan to me!!
Until next time...xx
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Cleanse - Jour Deux - Maple Syrup, bring it on!
Now try not to be jealous but I type this as have just finished my ninth lemon drink of the day. Boy am I full. It has been non-stop consuming today and I am just so full, wow, what a great feeling!
*Screeching brakes* Yeah not so much!! I have to be completely honest, again today, I only felt hungry right before I left for the gym! Not exactly ideal timing really but it is amazing what a few gulps of water can do to quell that feeling until you get to eat....errr I mean drink your lemon drink (well me anyway). You are smart and would just eat! :)
Today was actually easier than yesterday! I didn't think of food much at all. I know this sounds like "yeah as if" but it is true. I would say, I really would. I would love to nosh on some chips or even celery, don't get me wrong. Eating right now sounds FANTASTIC actually, that is the honest truth. However I don't NEED to eat. The drink really does the trick and I am actually very surprised. Yup, it is day 2 so by day 7 I may be really desperate and things might go down hill but as of right now, I am doing okay!
I didn't get yucked out by the maple syrup today at all. Maybe as I move further from my last solid bite of food, each thing I can actually consume will become very important and forcedly yummy! But it did make today a lot easier to not be at all grossed out by the only thing I am consuming.
I also realized I am extremely sadistic. I am keeping the lemons and cayenne caplets in the same cupboard as the hoards of Christmas chocolates that remain including my favorite, LINDOR! Every freakin' time I open the door they dance around and mock me, yet because I am clearly insane, I have yet to move my stuff! I really may have iron clad will power...thus far!
I went to the gym again! I am rather proud. I did 20 minutes of cardio and 2 sets of weights again and that also went well.
I have also begun, and I hope you can't blame me, to think past when this is over! My god, 8 days to go. But I feel I will of course, as a side effect, lose weight on this cleanse. It will be a lot of water weight which I know will come back but it won't be all water weight. I need to be sure that afterwards I am not just going to immediately gain it all back. So I am going to go back to Weight Watchers. Things are done a bit differently now so I will get caught up. The thought of eating small portions and less is laughable at this point and I will smoke that Weight Watchers...my god, I will be a gold star pupil after this. Some food? Well, don't mind if I do, my friend!
Peter and I are making wine. Tonight we moved it from the bucket to the carboy and it will now sit for 10 more days. It is a bit of a stressful process because we do not want to screw it up but even half made wine seemed consumable in my state! ;)
Not much of an eventful day but thanks for stopping by the blog! :)
Foods/drinks I would like to eat most today:
Chocolate Milk
Starbucks
A spinach salad with chicken and feta
Raisin Bran (odd I know)
Until next time...xx
*Screeching brakes* Yeah not so much!! I have to be completely honest, again today, I only felt hungry right before I left for the gym! Not exactly ideal timing really but it is amazing what a few gulps of water can do to quell that feeling until you get to eat....errr I mean drink your lemon drink (well me anyway). You are smart and would just eat! :)
Today was actually easier than yesterday! I didn't think of food much at all. I know this sounds like "yeah as if" but it is true. I would say, I really would. I would love to nosh on some chips or even celery, don't get me wrong. Eating right now sounds FANTASTIC actually, that is the honest truth. However I don't NEED to eat. The drink really does the trick and I am actually very surprised. Yup, it is day 2 so by day 7 I may be really desperate and things might go down hill but as of right now, I am doing okay!
I didn't get yucked out by the maple syrup today at all. Maybe as I move further from my last solid bite of food, each thing I can actually consume will become very important and forcedly yummy! But it did make today a lot easier to not be at all grossed out by the only thing I am consuming.
I also realized I am extremely sadistic. I am keeping the lemons and cayenne caplets in the same cupboard as the hoards of Christmas chocolates that remain including my favorite, LINDOR! Every freakin' time I open the door they dance around and mock me, yet because I am clearly insane, I have yet to move my stuff! I really may have iron clad will power...thus far!
I went to the gym again! I am rather proud. I did 20 minutes of cardio and 2 sets of weights again and that also went well.
I have also begun, and I hope you can't blame me, to think past when this is over! My god, 8 days to go. But I feel I will of course, as a side effect, lose weight on this cleanse. It will be a lot of water weight which I know will come back but it won't be all water weight. I need to be sure that afterwards I am not just going to immediately gain it all back. So I am going to go back to Weight Watchers. Things are done a bit differently now so I will get caught up. The thought of eating small portions and less is laughable at this point and I will smoke that Weight Watchers...my god, I will be a gold star pupil after this. Some food? Well, don't mind if I do, my friend!
Peter and I are making wine. Tonight we moved it from the bucket to the carboy and it will now sit for 10 more days. It is a bit of a stressful process because we do not want to screw it up but even half made wine seemed consumable in my state! ;)
Not much of an eventful day but thanks for stopping by the blog! :)
Foods/drinks I would like to eat most today:
Chocolate Milk
Starbucks
A spinach salad with chicken and feta
Raisin Bran (odd I know)
Until next time...xx
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
Lemon Pulp? Why, I'd love some!!
I bid you hello from my hungry-ville, population ONE! (Yes I understand there are MANY hungry people in the world but give me my moment!!)
So it is just after 8pm and I have stayed true thus far, yes it is day one but I mean, I have had no food since lastnight...ponder that for a moment!
*Now back to me* So my day started a bit messy, I won't get into but things have really settled down. In all honesty, it hasn't been that bad so far. I have drank a lot of water and about 7 portions of the concoction. I will probably drink 3 more. The funny thing about it, the hardest part is sometimes the drink. Not as much the not eating (now don't get me wrong, I would fight you for a piece of cheese right now) but I am not sure I love the maple syrup in the drink. Now give me some pancakes and I am all over that, but the maple syrup in the drink is something I could do without but I need those calories so it is what it is. Not every time I have one do I balk in disgust but every few I am like, ugghh!!!
Now I wasn't sure what I would do in terms of my work-outs during this time. I weighed myself this morning and obviously need to be hitting the gym but I am inevitably going to have less energy during this time frame. I still went. I did 20 minutes of light cardio and 2 sets of upper body weights. I felt pretty good considering. I am not sure as I move further and further away from my last bite of glorious food, how I will hold up but I will keep going and being smart about it while I can! Plus if I do some weights and drink enough, I won't lose much muscle mass!
What today has done (and yes I get it has only been one day), is make me laugh at how devastated I was to go on Weight Watchers and simply CUT DOWN on food. My goodness, at least I was eating for crying out loud. Now this is my revelation on day 1, by day 10 I could be solving some big world issues here. I mean I am not eating, I got lots of time to think!!! So already after just this short amount of time, I appreciate food, even in small portions, SO MUCH!!
Looking back at my December binge, it seems like so long ago, I may shed a little tear for that time lost!
Tonight the Biggest Loser premiers for another season which seems ironic on this day where I have stopped eating! There are lots of varying opinions on this show and it isn't for everyone. I am not much of a fan of the crying and it gets to be a bit much. I do however love to see people transform their lives, deal with their issues, get off their medications they don't need once they lose the weight and essentially blossom as people. Now my weight loss was much less dramatic in terms of the number I had to lose but my goodness, did it ever change my life! I know how it feels and I love it when other people can experience that for themselves. We have to die from something but it shouldn't be from something you can control like eating, it seems so unnecessary and sad.
Now having said that, I may list daily the foods/drink I am missing most on this particular day and they may not even be things I eat daily or regularly but today, they are on my wish list:
Starbucks
Meat products
Rice
Now you must excuse me while I go suck a
Until next time...xx
So it is just after 8pm and I have stayed true thus far, yes it is day one but I mean, I have had no food since lastnight...ponder that for a moment!
*Now back to me* So my day started a bit messy, I won't get into but things have really settled down. In all honesty, it hasn't been that bad so far. I have drank a lot of water and about 7 portions of the concoction. I will probably drink 3 more. The funny thing about it, the hardest part is sometimes the drink. Not as much the not eating (now don't get me wrong, I would fight you for a piece of cheese right now) but I am not sure I love the maple syrup in the drink. Now give me some pancakes and I am all over that, but the maple syrup in the drink is something I could do without but I need those calories so it is what it is. Not every time I have one do I balk in disgust but every few I am like, ugghh!!!
Now I wasn't sure what I would do in terms of my work-outs during this time. I weighed myself this morning and obviously need to be hitting the gym but I am inevitably going to have less energy during this time frame. I still went. I did 20 minutes of light cardio and 2 sets of upper body weights. I felt pretty good considering. I am not sure as I move further and further away from my last bite of glorious food, how I will hold up but I will keep going and being smart about it while I can! Plus if I do some weights and drink enough, I won't lose much muscle mass!
What today has done (and yes I get it has only been one day), is make me laugh at how devastated I was to go on Weight Watchers and simply CUT DOWN on food. My goodness, at least I was eating for crying out loud. Now this is my revelation on day 1, by day 10 I could be solving some big world issues here. I mean I am not eating, I got lots of time to think!!! So already after just this short amount of time, I appreciate food, even in small portions, SO MUCH!!
Looking back at my December binge, it seems like so long ago, I may shed a little tear for that time lost!
Tonight the Biggest Loser premiers for another season which seems ironic on this day where I have stopped eating! There are lots of varying opinions on this show and it isn't for everyone. I am not much of a fan of the crying and it gets to be a bit much. I do however love to see people transform their lives, deal with their issues, get off their medications they don't need once they lose the weight and essentially blossom as people. Now my weight loss was much less dramatic in terms of the number I had to lose but my goodness, did it ever change my life! I know how it feels and I love it when other people can experience that for themselves. We have to die from something but it shouldn't be from something you can control like eating, it seems so unnecessary and sad.
Now having said that, I may list daily the foods/drink I am missing most on this particular day and they may not even be things I eat daily or regularly but today, they are on my wish list:
Starbucks
Meat products
Rice
Now you must excuse me while I go suck a
Monday, January 3, 2011
Well I am no "Miss Manners" but please...
First of all, I would like to thank each and every one of you who is reading my meager little blog!
Even if you aren't specifically "following me", it means the world to me that you are out there anonymously reading what I write and for those actually following me, it is a blessing! I am so thrilled to have you share this with me!
So today I went to lululemon! Yes I hear the groans of all you anti-lululemoners but we all have our vices and this is mine! I tried to tell myself I was going simply because I had to take back some pants of my mother's to be hemmed but really that was just the catalyst. I had gift certificates and they were burning a hole in my wallet! (Thanks Dad and Momma Mullock for helping me carry out my addiction in great form!) :)
So besides a few times a week such as Thursday nights, it is usually always busy with over anxious shoppers vying for the best deal or the dwindling items of apparel. Crap now I have told you Thursday nights aren't that busy, I guess I shall see you there! So today was my last day before I head back to the J-O-B so I figured, well it is a good of a time as any. So I get there, it is of course super busy but again, I expected that. I tried on some things, they fit but weren't right for me but in the end, I settled on a few items, as I always do! :) So I am in line which has shortened considerably since I went in so that was a plus. I am at the the front of the line, the girl in front of me had just gone to an open register. I was on the cusp of freeing myself from the gaggle of shoppers when out of no where, this lady with her red matching shoes and jackets simply says, thank you. At first I thought, for what? What happens next left my mouth agape. She said her brief thank you and strolled up to the next available cash register. Like OMG, WTF? I stood there and it took me a while to come to terms with, okay she literally just strolled into line and took my spot out of no where. Her items were three headbands. Did she think because her items were smaller in size that it would be faster? I had three items but because of the size of my items, I should be made to wait? Another shopper actually said to me, did she just cut in line in front of you? I said, still in shock, yes and she said thank you but I am just not sure for what!!!
Was she thanking me for not flipping out on her ass and beating her with her matching red shoes? I do not always have perfect manners but I like to think I am mostly polite, say please and thank you, respect those around me and I certainly would never cut in line but try to "thank" my way out of a beat down!
But now I digress!
With my day I also joined a few other blogs, trying to get some exposure! I want people to enjoy my blog and I somehow also want people I do not know to enjoy my blog. One has to wonder, do people like my blog because they know me or do they genuinely like it as well? It is hard to ask someone this when they know you!? I also did some research on writing a novel, what to do to find a publisher, what others have done to be successful, etc. First and foremost I must get to writing so I am pumped!
It is also the eve of my cleanse! My posts from here on out might be filled with anger and crankiness so please, don't leave me in my time of need! haha The man at the grocery store behind me in line was like, um that is a lot of lemons! I tried to explain they were for a cleanse, he was foreign and had no idea what I was talking about which made it seem all the more foolish to be buying so many lemons. I discreetly put them in my shopping bags and dashed home! I know there are a lot of people who feel this won't be healthy and who are against it and well, that is totally cool. I look at it this way, it is 10 days of my life. I am not doing it for weight loss, I want to see if I can actually detox my body after the December slide into junk food hell. If I cannot do it I will stop and if I succeed at doing it but see no benefits, I of course will not do it again! I feel this is all very simplistic. I do not do long term things to harm myself such as smoke or drink excessively so it's going to be okay! I am actually looking forward to seeing what happens. I don't consider myself a stubborn person but when it comes to fitness/health, I like to prove stuff to myself so it shall be interesting!
Just sit back and enjoy the ride as you eat your three squares a day and I shall try my best to entertain you with my tales from the hungry crypt!
Until next time..xx
Even if you aren't specifically "following me", it means the world to me that you are out there anonymously reading what I write and for those actually following me, it is a blessing! I am so thrilled to have you share this with me!
So today I went to lululemon! Yes I hear the groans of all you anti-lululemoners but we all have our vices and this is mine! I tried to tell myself I was going simply because I had to take back some pants of my mother's to be hemmed but really that was just the catalyst. I had gift certificates and they were burning a hole in my wallet! (Thanks Dad and Momma Mullock for helping me carry out my addiction in great form!) :)
So besides a few times a week such as Thursday nights, it is usually always busy with over anxious shoppers vying for the best deal or the dwindling items of apparel. Crap now I have told you Thursday nights aren't that busy, I guess I shall see you there! So today was my last day before I head back to the J-O-B so I figured, well it is a good of a time as any. So I get there, it is of course super busy but again, I expected that. I tried on some things, they fit but weren't right for me but in the end, I settled on a few items, as I always do! :) So I am in line which has shortened considerably since I went in so that was a plus. I am at the the front of the line, the girl in front of me had just gone to an open register. I was on the cusp of freeing myself from the gaggle of shoppers when out of no where, this lady with her red matching shoes and jackets simply says, thank you. At first I thought, for what? What happens next left my mouth agape. She said her brief thank you and strolled up to the next available cash register. Like OMG, WTF? I stood there and it took me a while to come to terms with, okay she literally just strolled into line and took my spot out of no where. Her items were three headbands. Did she think because her items were smaller in size that it would be faster? I had three items but because of the size of my items, I should be made to wait? Another shopper actually said to me, did she just cut in line in front of you? I said, still in shock, yes and she said thank you but I am just not sure for what!!!
Was she thanking me for not flipping out on her ass and beating her with her matching red shoes? I do not always have perfect manners but I like to think I am mostly polite, say please and thank you, respect those around me and I certainly would never cut in line but try to "thank" my way out of a beat down!
But now I digress!
With my day I also joined a few other blogs, trying to get some exposure! I want people to enjoy my blog and I somehow also want people I do not know to enjoy my blog. One has to wonder, do people like my blog because they know me or do they genuinely like it as well? It is hard to ask someone this when they know you!? I also did some research on writing a novel, what to do to find a publisher, what others have done to be successful, etc. First and foremost I must get to writing so I am pumped!
It is also the eve of my cleanse! My posts from here on out might be filled with anger and crankiness so please, don't leave me in my time of need! haha The man at the grocery store behind me in line was like, um that is a lot of lemons! I tried to explain they were for a cleanse, he was foreign and had no idea what I was talking about which made it seem all the more foolish to be buying so many lemons. I discreetly put them in my shopping bags and dashed home! I know there are a lot of people who feel this won't be healthy and who are against it and well, that is totally cool. I look at it this way, it is 10 days of my life. I am not doing it for weight loss, I want to see if I can actually detox my body after the December slide into junk food hell. If I cannot do it I will stop and if I succeed at doing it but see no benefits, I of course will not do it again! I feel this is all very simplistic. I do not do long term things to harm myself such as smoke or drink excessively so it's going to be okay! I am actually looking forward to seeing what happens. I don't consider myself a stubborn person but when it comes to fitness/health, I like to prove stuff to myself so it shall be interesting!
Just sit back and enjoy the ride as you eat your three squares a day and I shall try my best to entertain you with my tales from the hungry crypt!
Until next time..xx
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Why?
So why am I so presumptuous and thinking I could maybe be an author? Who am I? Why do I think I am special?
Well let's go back a ways why don't we? You should be super excited here...
I have always had a love for books but reading doesn't make you a writer or heck, we would be overburdened with wanna-be-authors like myself and really it is a field where you need to be good at it, let's face it!
But reading for me is where it started, the love of the written word, the journey on which books took me, the escape they gave me when necessary, the use of my brain in a visual way even though I wasn't seeing what was being described with my actual eyes. It was fascinating to me, that transportation.
I then started to write on my current interests such as music groups or athletes and immersing myself in what their worlds might be like. A few people were privy to reading those and even though they were a start they were childish and if they still existed now, I wouldn't share them with anyone. I did this for years though, I would say a good 15 years I wrote on those topics and kept it mostly to myself. It was all fictional however not keeping the work made those 15 years a bit wasted but I look back fondly on that writing and the time I spent doing it, I loved it. So I guess it wasn't really wasted after all! It allowed me to also transport myself to a different place which was when I realized, hmm, maybe I have something here.
I went to Acadia and got a degree in English, more reading and writing. During this time I continued to write poetry and my stories.
It is the last few years where things have stalled. I have started a few children's books which never amounted to anything and also a few fictional novels which is where I feel I belong at this point, that is the kind of writing I would like to do. Fictional...now what that means is up for debate. I don't see myself writing Danielle Steele type books or romance novels, but I would see some of those elements in my writing. Danielle Steele was actually when I started getting into more adult books. Her book "Fine Things" still stays with me to this day, it is a good read if you haven't already partaken! ;)
So now, here I sit, writing a blog and working up courage to go back to my started "novel". I have an idea, I have it started and this will be my push to get past my fear, write until it is written and go from there! Obviously this will be developing as my blog develops....I hope!
Another topic I must comment on:
Tonight I went to the hospital and visited my close friend who had a baby, just yesterday. I am opposed to myself becoming a mother, to put it mildly. I have no desire to rear children, to be their role model, to be responsible for them being good people and doing well in the world. Mothers are to be admired, and of course I would like to be admired, just not for my mothering skills...because to be honest, I am not sure my mothering skills would be all that admirable!! ;) However to see this baby, to see their faces (the parents, my friends), to hold this little girl who had just yesterday been inside her mother's tummy, it was truly amazing. I could have looked at her all day, just held her and looked at her...although this was unrealistic as I know she would cry, need to be breastfed and also her nappie changed and well, that is where I digress in the process!
I do feel I would love to be pregnant..and maybe name the child...but that is all! I feel like the process of being pregnant, although it would be very hard, I think it would be a fascinating time and something I will regret not experiencing however I cannot regret it for long. If I wasn't born to be a mother, I was born to be something else and I will need to assume that fate and embrace it as it comes.
So to all the mothers out there, kudos and you have my deepest respect!
**Currently reading: Booky Wook 2 by Russell Brand
Until next time.... xx
Well let's go back a ways why don't we? You should be super excited here...
I have always had a love for books but reading doesn't make you a writer or heck, we would be overburdened with wanna-be-authors like myself and really it is a field where you need to be good at it, let's face it!
But reading for me is where it started, the love of the written word, the journey on which books took me, the escape they gave me when necessary, the use of my brain in a visual way even though I wasn't seeing what was being described with my actual eyes. It was fascinating to me, that transportation.
I then started to write on my current interests such as music groups or athletes and immersing myself in what their worlds might be like. A few people were privy to reading those and even though they were a start they were childish and if they still existed now, I wouldn't share them with anyone. I did this for years though, I would say a good 15 years I wrote on those topics and kept it mostly to myself. It was all fictional however not keeping the work made those 15 years a bit wasted but I look back fondly on that writing and the time I spent doing it, I loved it. So I guess it wasn't really wasted after all! It allowed me to also transport myself to a different place which was when I realized, hmm, maybe I have something here.
I went to Acadia and got a degree in English, more reading and writing. During this time I continued to write poetry and my stories.
It is the last few years where things have stalled. I have started a few children's books which never amounted to anything and also a few fictional novels which is where I feel I belong at this point, that is the kind of writing I would like to do. Fictional...now what that means is up for debate. I don't see myself writing Danielle Steele type books or romance novels, but I would see some of those elements in my writing. Danielle Steele was actually when I started getting into more adult books. Her book "Fine Things" still stays with me to this day, it is a good read if you haven't already partaken! ;)
So now, here I sit, writing a blog and working up courage to go back to my started "novel". I have an idea, I have it started and this will be my push to get past my fear, write until it is written and go from there! Obviously this will be developing as my blog develops....I hope!
Another topic I must comment on:
Tonight I went to the hospital and visited my close friend who had a baby, just yesterday. I am opposed to myself becoming a mother, to put it mildly. I have no desire to rear children, to be their role model, to be responsible for them being good people and doing well in the world. Mothers are to be admired, and of course I would like to be admired, just not for my mothering skills...because to be honest, I am not sure my mothering skills would be all that admirable!! ;) However to see this baby, to see their faces (the parents, my friends), to hold this little girl who had just yesterday been inside her mother's tummy, it was truly amazing. I could have looked at her all day, just held her and looked at her...although this was unrealistic as I know she would cry, need to be breastfed and also her nappie changed and well, that is where I digress in the process!
I do feel I would love to be pregnant..and maybe name the child...but that is all! I feel like the process of being pregnant, although it would be very hard, I think it would be a fascinating time and something I will regret not experiencing however I cannot regret it for long. If I wasn't born to be a mother, I was born to be something else and I will need to assume that fate and embrace it as it comes.
So to all the mothers out there, kudos and you have my deepest respect!
**Currently reading: Booky Wook 2 by Russell Brand
Until next time.... xx
Saturday, January 1, 2011
Well...here I go!!
I would like to welcome you to my blog! (whoever "you" might be) :)
Lately I have been doing the "30 Days of Pictures" on Facebook and I have quite enjoyed it although it is also a tad narcissistic!
It did get me thinking though, what if people actually were interested in stuff I have to say? I want to be a writer so badly but my biggest road block has been putting myself out there and what, maybe be judged? Criticized? You know what, so what? This is my dream and I feel it is what I should be doing so I need to get on with it and I think this is a great stepping stone to see if well, I am at all relevant! I will never know if I don't try right!?
So here I am!
Holy shit...now what?? ;)
So it is New Year's Day..January 1st, 2011! How the heck did we get here? Where has the last year gone? What did I do? Did I accomplish anything? Where do I go from here?
Okay, deep breath! Every year gives us something to take into the next. Whether it be something to learn from, improve on or something to get rid of completely (maybe a bad habit such as ya know, eating peanut butter out of the jar by the spoonful? It isn't helping anyone, put down the spoon!!)
I am not much into New Year's "resolutions". I mean I respect people who choose to use the new year as a jump start but in the grand scheme of things, we should be working on evolving all the time, making life style changes or see friends all throughout the year, not just call on it when it is expected or contrived. If there are improvements to be made, make them in June if needed, don't wait six months to make it an official resolution, life is far too short and six months is far too long to wait!
As for me, 2011 is going to be a monster year in a good way!!
I am going on a cruise in May, to Toronto to see NKOTBSB (holy shit, my 14 year old self squeals every time I say it..or errr type it) in June, I am in a wedding of a wonderful friend in July, I am in well MY WEDDING in August and we will also go on a trip down south a few months later...
This means a few things...a) 2011 is going to be AMAZING, b) lots to look forward to and then there is c)...damn you c).
C)...work out like a crazy person and eat cleanly
Now how does c) differ from the month of December, 2010? In every possible way!!! I did work out but eating cleanly...well, the plates and utensils I used were clean but that is as far as the clean goes!!
So for me, January does not bring resolutions because I already lead a mostly healthy lifestyle...for me it means steering my car back on the road and doing a bit of an overhaul to prepare for what is ahead.
January 4th I am starting a Master Cleanse which I will (hopefully) do for 10 days, no food...now THAT should make for some interesting posts. :)
Until next time....xx
Lately I have been doing the "30 Days of Pictures" on Facebook and I have quite enjoyed it although it is also a tad narcissistic!
It did get me thinking though, what if people actually were interested in stuff I have to say? I want to be a writer so badly but my biggest road block has been putting myself out there and what, maybe be judged? Criticized? You know what, so what? This is my dream and I feel it is what I should be doing so I need to get on with it and I think this is a great stepping stone to see if well, I am at all relevant! I will never know if I don't try right!?
So here I am!
Holy shit...now what?? ;)
So it is New Year's Day..January 1st, 2011! How the heck did we get here? Where has the last year gone? What did I do? Did I accomplish anything? Where do I go from here?
Okay, deep breath! Every year gives us something to take into the next. Whether it be something to learn from, improve on or something to get rid of completely (maybe a bad habit such as ya know, eating peanut butter out of the jar by the spoonful? It isn't helping anyone, put down the spoon!!)
I am not much into New Year's "resolutions". I mean I respect people who choose to use the new year as a jump start but in the grand scheme of things, we should be working on evolving all the time, making life style changes or see friends all throughout the year, not just call on it when it is expected or contrived. If there are improvements to be made, make them in June if needed, don't wait six months to make it an official resolution, life is far too short and six months is far too long to wait!
As for me, 2011 is going to be a monster year in a good way!!
I am going on a cruise in May, to Toronto to see NKOTBSB (holy shit, my 14 year old self squeals every time I say it..or errr type it) in June, I am in a wedding of a wonderful friend in July, I am in well MY WEDDING in August and we will also go on a trip down south a few months later...
This means a few things...a) 2011 is going to be AMAZING, b) lots to look forward to and then there is c)...damn you c).
C)...work out like a crazy person and eat cleanly
Now how does c) differ from the month of December, 2010? In every possible way!!! I did work out but eating cleanly...well, the plates and utensils I used were clean but that is as far as the clean goes!!
So for me, January does not bring resolutions because I already lead a mostly healthy lifestyle...for me it means steering my car back on the road and doing a bit of an overhaul to prepare for what is ahead.
January 4th I am starting a Master Cleanse which I will (hopefully) do for 10 days, no food...now THAT should make for some interesting posts. :)
Until next time....xx
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