Annnnnnnnnnnnnd that's all folks!!!

So today I made a very hard decision to end my cleanse.

I know, I know, I was doing so good and well, I really was!
Days 1 and 2 weren't bad at all, I was doing just fine, although eating would have been let's say, pleasant.
Day 3 was SUPER tough for me.  I was hungry from 1pm until bedtime and I fought with myself not to break it. I did end up having a rice cake and it did tide me over but I was soooo hungry.
Today, day 4, I actually had a much better day at it.  I wasn't really that hungry and I felt okay.

For some reason though as the day went on I just kept feeling like, okay I think I need to stop.  I cannot explain it, maybe my intuition but I listened and came to the conclusion that my time with this foray into the world of The Master Cleanse was over for me, my hungry journey was complete, let's say!

I have very mixed feelings about this surprisingly!

I am not a quitter.  I usually do things for too long such as leave things unsaid for too long or let relationships go on for too long that I should have ended years prior, I stick around with things even to the detriment of me.  I don't consider myself a stubborn person but I guess with some things I am.
So to stop this cleanse was very hard for me, actually it stirred up some emotions.
The thing is I know I could have done the 10 days, something was just telling me it was time to be done and I listened...and well, I am okay with that.

I am actually very proud of the four days I did and I really do have self discipline and huge will power.  I do recognize this and was able to prove that myself once and for all.  I also am proud that even though everyone knew about my cleanse and was interested in hearing about how it was going, I am not ashamed to end it. (thanks Brianna).  I know a lot of people couldn't do four days...so it is something to be proud of.  But I am also proud of the fact that I actually listened to myself and stopped it.

I am also glad I did it.  I do hope in some way, I cleaned things up a bit in there and now I will start fresh and eat well and exercise and get it done!!  I am going to go back to Weight Watchers on Tuesday just to stay on track and over the weekend I am making up my new exercise plan.  My intention this year is to change the landscape of my body and I will work hard to do that while still having fun and enjoying life because really, what is life with out a little shimmy and shake every now and then!?

I also need to give props to Peter who I thought would rant and rave about me doing this cleanse but besides making his feelings known once, he allowed me the space to try it and explore it for myself and that is why I love you!

I also know a lot of people were concerned about me doing this cleanse and well, that just makes me feel loved and I appreciate that so much!

So my focus going forward....the food I am intaking, proper exercise and working on my novel!  I think it sounds like a dandy plan to me!!

Until next time...xx